Forget Me Not

I took my little bag of seeds and split it into 2 identical pots with the same bag of potting soil and give each one the exact same amount of water and sun and the seeds in one pot look so much different from the other. I wonder if one pot got better seeds than the other one. The weird thing is that the flower buds are on the plant that has smaller leaves. I am not sure what the leaves of Forget Me Nots are supposed to look like so I am not sure which one looks better. I just wish that the flowers would come out, even just for a day. Seeing some Forget Me Nots come out would just make me so happy. It would just give me some sort of sign that everything will turn out great again. They just make me feel like I am not forgotten and left behind. Sometimes things just don't go the way that I would have planned. I try to be happy and stay positive about things, but sometimes it slips. It is so hard to be positive and confident all the time. It is so easy to fall back into a state where you want to hate everything and never get out of bed. Sometimes you just feel like you need more than telling yourself that everything will be ok. You just want someone to come to you and hug you and tell you that everything will turn out just fine. Sometimes you just want to know some answers so you know what to do. Sometimes I can just go along with everything and it doesn't even matter what happens, but that is when I am happy where I am. When I don't like where I am, I just want to know. I just want some piece of information that will help me out. I want one little glimmer of hope to tell me that no matter what I do, I am going to be happy again.